Thursday, April 28, 2005

Business is Busyness

Things at work have been crazy the past 2-3 weeks. Conference calls and meetings with our client almost every morning. Writing memos about what happened in those meetings almost every afternoon. And trying to stay on top of the work I already have every evening. It's not the crushing pace of M&A work, which I'm thankful for. I still come home at a decent hour, albeit after dinner usually. No, instead it's been more like a dull, consistent grind. And I must say that it's taken a toll on a lot of things (like...well, blogging). But thankfully, I have been able to carve out some pockets of time for myself here and there.

I've been thinking about whether I should write every day, regardless of whether I have anything interesting to say. Anyone who knows me knows that I have a million thoughts running around my head at any given point. But then I started thinking, "Do I really want to talk about how Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes are dating, and what my thoughts are on that?" (yes, I have thoughts about it)... Or for that matter, how I'm really annoyed that the Wizards are down 2-0 to Chicago in the NBA Playoffs? Do I really want to become that blog?

I'm reminded of something that a friend wrote to me recently regarding blogging. I told him that my blog has recently become less personal due to the increase in readership, to which he urged me to continue to write what I've been really thinking about. Otherwise, he said "...it's just chaff for the blogosphere." And he's right. It's just junk food for the internet-minded, junk-food addict.

I've been dwelling on some serious issues recently, and it has taken longer than expected to wrap my arms around them. I've been tracing my fingers along the fabric of my life, working to find the seams and edges. Identifying those portions that need the most work, where my attributes and virtues are weakest. Compulsively checking and rechecking every stitch and loop, making sure that they will hold together when tugged on.

So to that end, I suppose what may seem like silence then is really simply me processing things into a form that I can share them. Besides, I'm sure you'd much rather read about more significant and honest things, than who is dating a celebrity. If you want that, you can always go here.